Yes indeed !!!
The battle !! The victory !!!
Read on to believe !!
“Poetry is what in a poem makes you laugh, cry, prickle, be silent, makes your toe nails twinkle, makes you want to do this or that or nothing, makes you know that you are alone in the unknown world, that your bliss and suffering is forever shared and forever all your own.”
These words by Dylan Thomas capture the essence of poetry as it personifies a means to express deep feelings nestled inside.
A poet is like the ocean at times, waves crashing, sometimes a light house showing the way but all alone. And it is said that the poet has the ability to turn words into lyrical melodies that ring out loud the secret sufferings of the heart.
A dreamer, lost, finding their way through intricate expressions of wordplay! The power of language, the strength of expression as it relates to our relationship with everything in the universe.
The physical reality of the human voice of words carved out in words on paper, typed out on a laptop or mobile in these times.
Presenting a poetess who never gave up on the battle against depression !!
Today on The Uncommon Box is featured Caroline White @cwpoet, a poetess and author of the book ‘Chasing Myself’, a debut collection of poetry about her experiences and battle against depression. Her second book ‘Dare me to heal’ another book devoted to pain and healing which comes out in June.
She writes to share her experiences to break the stigma around mental illness. It is her endeavour to bring to light the debilitating effects depression has on daily life and future goals. It is important to her to let people know that their voice matters and they can use it heal themselves.
She loves to connect with people and learn from them. These are the threads of thoughts that run through her poems. Her source of inspiration is her pain, for when putting her thoughts and heart on the paper lets her make sense of her emotions. This is an emotional process for her as a poet.
With Mental health becoming a major concern worldwide in countries and college campuses, Caroline through her poems raises questions about societal responses and prejudices that play a part in the slipping of today’s generation into the morasses of depression.
Here are some poems Caroline has written that take us down the dark world of depression , and gives us a glimpse into her thoughts and her continuing fight to overcome her fears.
Words matter !!
These are her words challenging depression headlong! That is the spirit that is the answer to the demons that haunt.
This is a poem from the poetess, taking back control of her life instead of giving it all up to depression.
Strung by the strings of self doubt and low self esteem, the poetess struggles with herself, and to find meaning in life.
In this poem, Caroline talks about not fitting into the world, afraid of calling herself a bad person. Her fragility makes her feel that the world is hell to live in.
The next poem talks about the bête noire of all us mortals. Love! Unrequited love!
Read on and think deeply on what she has to say…
Caroline speaks her mind on the pitfalls of unrequited love, and the games it plays with the mind.
It resonates doesn’t it?
Life opens up to us when we are vulnerable, but is it true for a lovelorn heart battling the fears of sinking into depression when faced with rejection?
Caroline answers the question eloquently as she talks about breaking boundaries and limits when it comes to loving somebody.
A flux of changes in society are redefining the contours of relationships, marriages are breaking down and causing untold distress to couples as well as individuals mentally as well as physically.
Caroline here talks about a period of darkness in her relationship, it being a contributor to depression. This was the time she was separated from her husband, and her worries about her future.
The depression is the darkness of the soul where one gets lost and it is in this phase of life that a person looks for help.
The gravity of the situation is not felt by all, so the feeling of abandonment is all pervasive.
Caroline talks about this sense of abandonment in a persuasive manner with the metaphor of spinning in circles and being lost with no one to stop the fall.
Mental health is a global concern and the key lies in asking and getting help when suffering from any disorder.
Denial is a common symptom.
Here the poetess talks about how she didn’t ask for help thinking she could deal with the issues on her own. But this is the reason why many think this is a passing phase.
In a world obsessed with perfection, the constant pursuit of perfection takes a heavy toll on the psyche.
Ever felt that any thing you do is not good enough?
Caroline in this beautiful poem talks about the ideal of perfection and how for her it is all tied into suicidal ideation.
As Time rolls on, there are phases of life in which the acceptance of present reality is the only recourse.
These beautiful lines are heart warming.
These lines have been penned by Caroline as she struggled to come to terms with her father’s death
The veil of sadness casts a dark pall on the mind, the darkness staying on as a unwanted guest.
When all one wants to do is escape and be free.
This is about how the darkness comforted Caroline for so long and why she didn’t want to leave it.
When the world is overwhelming and closing in, the panic attacks and depression are stifling.
Nature seems to be in cahoots with the universe!!
Caroline in these incisive lines talks about the fragility of her mind interweaving the elements into her narrative!
The pain of loneliness and fighting fears is hard to accept, usually it is swept under the carpet, masked with smiles.
Familiar isn’t it?
Caroline accepts the pain in this poem, but also tries to carve out a new identity for herself by working on the parts she can heal and doing away with the parts not helpful to her in the journey to recovery.
When you leave the past behind…..
Caroline talks about the process of letting go of the person inside of her tormented by anxiety and depression.
The letting go and coming out strong!
When you forgive yourself,
the ultimate test !!
Caroline needed to admit to herself that she had a problem and that it was okay. She forgave herself for being afraid and holding in pain. A heart breaking portrayal of the inner struggle!!
This is her now, the poetess!!!
Caroline describes herself as she is in these beautiful lines, giving us the glimpse of the person she is, strong and resilient !!!
This is poetess Caroline White’s @cwpoet perspective on the way she fought depression and was successful in overcoming it. Giving her emotions a voice in words was her gateway to healing.
ABOUT THE POETESS
Starting to write at the tender age of 11 years as a means of coping with her parent’s divorce, writing has continued to give her solace as she grappled with bouts of depression and anxiety about 3 years ago.
The journey into the world of writing is worthwhile to her when people reach out to her saying that her writing has helped them. It is her belief that the work she is doing is important when it helps them to relax and find their voice.
Her dreams for herself are to inculcate creativity in her children and to see her book come out this month. She counts as her support group, the writer community who she feels understand her writings.
Caroline has this one thing to say to aspiring writers, “Write from your heart!”
Follow this amazing poetess, and be inspired with her journey !! Her social media links are
Instagram | Facebook Page | Twitter | Tumblr
This is important …..!!
This can be also be true for the countless others struggling with their demons alone, to confront them and ask for help.For expression of feelings through writing, art, poetry or any medium has the potential to heal and give purpose to life where there was none.There are many struggling with problems, one should know that they are not alone.
Help, understanding and empathy is at hand!!
The Uncommon Box’s Team TUB believe in supporting all initiatives on better mental health management in colleges and societies.
It is a reminder to all of us that no one is alone, reach out!
But then again we should remember that, depression does mute the ability to reach out for many people.
If you are not depressed and you see someone struggling,
You reach out !
If you don’t see someone who used to be around,
You reach out!
We here, at The Uncommon Box in this article bring into sharp focus the challenges of mental health, and the ability to work one’s way out of it by writing, expressing oneself, and asking for help.
This month has seen the suicides of two high profile celebrities, Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, depression makes no distinction between the rich and not so rich. The pressures of modern living, expectations, family troubles can break the seemingly strong personalities that seem to have it all.
Life is the same for all of us, to be the best we can be, but if help is needed, reach out to a friend, a helpline, or counsellor!!
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